The biggest frustration gnawing at me incessantly the past few days has been my sheer incompetence at paragraph formations. For a person who has spent the kind of effort and time that I have on this language, it is nothing short of a cruel joke to have to deal with the idea of not being able to form coherent passages. What’s even worse, or rather, what makes me want to kill myself is the fact that people with less than mediocre communication skills seem to be doing just fine. Better than fine actually.
I’m not really arrogant about my language, but yes, it does start to feel like a personal assault when 5 jumbled sentences become an insurmountable hurdle. It’s even more frustrating because just how do you go up to someone and ask them to teach you to form paragraphs? I mean, it’s basic writing 101. Even when we wrote essays on “My favourite pet” in kindergarten, we knew how to go from one point to another.
As if being beyond hope in grammar was not enough, now, I fumble through the most scoring and basic topic in English Usage.
It’s times like these that make me wonder if I’m just fooling myself with wanting to write. If I cannot string together 5 sentences (that too with possible options staring me in the face) will I ever be able to create a story that flows seamlessly from the beginning to the end?
And just how will I crack a CAT paper without being armed with such rudimentary skills?